Tuesday, June 27, 2006

What a wondeful caricature of intimacy

Mood: Hating my lungs for trying to leave me in this pivotal moment in my life
Music: Build God, Then We'll Talk - Panic! At The Disco

So I was just thinking, how well do you really know the people around you? I mean, is everyone just playing a role? Are we all just puppets in some huge cosmic joke? What's real and what's not? Am I playing a role? I mean, who am I really?

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Panic! At The Disco

Mood: Tired, but content
Music: Build God, Then We'll Talk - Panic! At The Disco

Panic! At The Disco, or P!ATD as I will now be calling them are my new obsession. They're the first band to be signed to Decaydance Records, which was founded by Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy, another one of my favourite bands. P!ATD is a lot like FOB I've found, but a lot more cynical. They're darker but their music is very catchy. Ahh I'm in love.

And btw Justin? No I'm not mad!!! Just never seem to catch you online and have been really busy lately, with being sick and mid-years and all. Sorry!

Monday, June 19, 2006

For You I Will

Mood: Hyped
Music: Over My Head - The Fray

What is it with my fascination with blatantly bad tv? I'm not saying all the tv shows I watch are bad, I actually think I have quite good taste in tv shows, it's just I can't seem to tear myself away from shows like Laguna Beach and The Hills. What is it about them that makes it so addictive? I mean, it's scripted reality television. Which isn't even real reality television. Damn, why is this MTV trash so good!!!

The tv shows I actually loyally follow have definitely been drastically reduced. I used to watch a lot of different shows. Now? Not so much. I'm down to: Lost, Grey's Anatomy and Veronica Mars. Sporadically there will be some MTV "reality" shows, One Tree Hill and a little bit of the OC. Ah the OC. The loss. The pain.

My love of the OC has died. 2 and a half loyal seasons, and the show has become crap. Somehow, when you ruin my favourite character by making him smoke pot, I will go off the show. As well as that, I was a RyRissa fan, despite my dislike of Marissa as of late. But when you go and kill the girl, well there goes the love. Seth and Summer just can't keep it alive for me.

Grey's Anatomy is definitely my favourite show on tv right now. It's well scripted, the storylines are great, the characters are flawed and real, the chemistry is amazing. Patrick Dempsey and Ellen Pompeo just sizzle together on screen. Perfection.

Veronica Mars I like for pretty much the same reasons. LoVe. Just can't go without them. Jason Dohring and Kristen Bell just play off each other so well, and Veronica makes the ideal role model for any adolescent girl. The show manages to actually have a storyline too, not relying on the angst and drama of relationships between characters. The format is great too. Each episode is self-contained as a mystery, but also assists in forwarding the main storyline. Can't wait for next season. How will they keep the gang together now that Veronica's bound for Stanford? Will there be any casualties of this move?

So how is my life as of late. I've found myself, bored, with things and people. Some people just don't stimulate how they used to and I occasionally find myself craving a conversation where I can use complex vocabulary and not be mocked. I'm sick of the "tall-poppy syndrome" which seems to be becoming more and more evident within my social arena as time passes.

School is...fine. I guess. The actual school is fine. It's more the "black cloud of guilt" which accompanies procrastination (that's how the Advertiser put it this morning) that's weighing me down. There are so many things I know I should be doing, but I'm not. It's hard to find the motivation to revise for exams. It's not because I don't understand the gravity of these exams, that I fully grasp. I just, can't get started. Like it says in that Grinspoon song, Can't get started, chemical heart. I've kinda decided, "Screw Japanese and Legal revision, I'll wing it." So basically I've cut two subjects, but still can't seem to revise for the other three. Physics, Chemistry and the killer, Maths Studies. Bah. I hate differential calculus. It is the bastard son of satan. Seriously, this is no exaggeration. I could probably back up that claim with research. But I won't, because I'm going to go start exam revision. Heh.