Streams of cynicism
Mood: Relaxed
Music: Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - Fall Out Boy
So I haven't written in this in a while. And don't actually have a real topic to write about, so this is just gonna be whatever comes into my head. Just thinking I guess. I really need to do Japanese homework, or English homework, but no. Just can't seem to. I'm hoping that at some point I can sit down and just write my IDS. Hopefully it'll all just come to me. I really put way too much faith into my own ability sometimes.
Hmm, so lately I haven't been connecting with many of my usual friends. For some weird reason, usual topics of conversation just seem ridiculously vapid and superficial. I don't know. It's weird. Either they're changing or I am...probably me. I just feel like there's no real depth there. Living from party to party, good time to good time. I don't know. I think I need to be more focused at this point in my life, and maybe my ambitions and priorities just aren't matching up with theirs anymore. But maybe that's just a part of growing up.
Surprisingly, I don't find drifting as scary or saddening as I thought I would. It's just happening. It's not my fault, or their faults, it's just happening. And maybe it needs to so that we can all move forward with our lives. This is a pivotal turning point I think, I need to move on and grow up.
Uni applications are in, medicine at Adelaide, Melbourne and Monash. Hopefully I'll get an interview at at least one of them. Who knows.
Anyway, think I'm going to sleep soon. Need to be awake for tomorrow, need to be able to absorb information! Tomorrow I will concentrate and get at least one assignment done. Preferably the IDS. We'll see.
Music: Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - Fall Out Boy
So I haven't written in this in a while. And don't actually have a real topic to write about, so this is just gonna be whatever comes into my head. Just thinking I guess. I really need to do Japanese homework, or English homework, but no. Just can't seem to. I'm hoping that at some point I can sit down and just write my IDS. Hopefully it'll all just come to me. I really put way too much faith into my own ability sometimes.
Hmm, so lately I haven't been connecting with many of my usual friends. For some weird reason, usual topics of conversation just seem ridiculously vapid and superficial. I don't know. It's weird. Either they're changing or I am...probably me. I just feel like there's no real depth there. Living from party to party, good time to good time. I don't know. I think I need to be more focused at this point in my life, and maybe my ambitions and priorities just aren't matching up with theirs anymore. But maybe that's just a part of growing up.
Surprisingly, I don't find drifting as scary or saddening as I thought I would. It's just happening. It's not my fault, or their faults, it's just happening. And maybe it needs to so that we can all move forward with our lives. This is a pivotal turning point I think, I need to move on and grow up.
Uni applications are in, medicine at Adelaide, Melbourne and Monash. Hopefully I'll get an interview at at least one of them. Who knows.
Anyway, think I'm going to sleep soon. Need to be awake for tomorrow, need to be able to absorb information! Tomorrow I will concentrate and get at least one assignment done. Preferably the IDS. We'll see.
posted by Chars at 9:26 pm
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